Tears

One of my closest friends is as of today, gone.  We have had our ups and downs, and lately i have been mad at her over stupid stuff that i learn now was not true.  We talked about our problems and really got out what was needed to be said.   Due to some serious problems at our school, she has officially dropped from our school and is either going to be homeschooled or relocated to another state.  This is uber unfortunate being that she has been at this school since jr high and has just recently been adopted by her foster parents and now she is being uprooted from the school that she has been at the longest away from friends who miss her all because of stupid people who dont know how to treat eachother or keep their mouths shut!!!!!!! Im sick of this bull and once again, the school has lived up to its name of Drama High!!!! Now our jr. Class has been officially counted as of today of 17 students.  The circumstances of why she left makes me sick to my stomach and i strongly wish that people would learn that bullying, sexual harassment, and cyber bullying is nothing to take lightly and nothing to be ignored.  Im sick of the childish people at this school!!!!!!!!!!!! Southern La girl, if you are reading this, i love you so much!!! and keep in touch!! im so glad you decided to go to prom with JC so we can see you!!! Keep in touch girl and we are gonna make plans one day to do something soon!!!
STUPID PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UUUUGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!
<3 Leighann

Daily Dose of B

So..new years was awesome..school is back..and there isn't much to tell about my new years.  It was the usual.  New Years  party at the casino...hanging with someone who was way too young to really have any fun with.  Met some new people..chilled with the ones i previously knew.  Then school starts back and the realization that so many people have changed had finally set in.  I go day by day with people that seem to just don't want me around anymore.  It seems they only want to be friends when the want something.  I don't want to just come out and say something about it based on the fact that it may but be a misconception, but i hate the fact that i try so hard to be such a great friend but all they seem to do is shoot me down.  I try to talk to her about things because i used to could confide in her but i can't confide in her anymore because it  seems now that i cant tell her anything because she runs her mouth. And sometimes..when i talk to her.. she acts like she isn't listening and it irritates me and she doesn't take me seriously.  I CAN"T STAND IT!!!!!!!! She is driving me insane! I'm so irritated about it and like i said,,its driving me insane and i don't know what to do about her.  It just seems like she is mad at me for something but i don't know what her reasoning's are.  I'm sick and tired of it.  OK so that's my  drama for today..The Lord knows i have so much more that its just unreal!! Prom is coming up and then there is my brother leaving (I'm counting the days) for basic training.  So much is going on and soon..it will be coming out! <3 Leighann

These Walls

All these things that remind me of you! All these images I can't suppress from my mind.  My heart is screaming for me to allow it to break free from the chains, tear down the wall, and drain the mile long shark infested trench that surrounds it.  Break Free it screams at me! I feel its about to pop out of my chest.  But, no i can not.  I can not suffer my heart the fate of pain that is suffered so many times before.  I refuse to let him in, but I'm scared if i don't I will loose him! My mind is rambling on about nothing.  Its getting hard to think. The more i keep my guard up, the easier it is for me to submit myself to listen and look at those red flags.  But, none have gone off about him.  He is sweet, caring, handsome, tall, great listener, knows how to make me laugh, I could go on for so long.  My heart is yearning to break free from the silence and the prison walls that i have surrounded it with.  My heart is silently weeping because it wishes for its freedom. But, how can i give my heart freedom, if fear is holding me back? <3 Leighann

Sick and tired

So yesterday after school, they mess had escalated.   It sucks really because she made the mistake of getting in my face.  Thank goodness the teacher intervened or else they would be trying to get a crane to pick her ash off the ground.  I'm sick  and tired of this crap.  They start it, I finish it, that's how it roles, but i do not appreciate the fact that i get punished and she doesn't.  I'm not even the one who started it!!!!!!!!!!!!!  And today, i have decided to drop it, but she keeps running her mouth.  She may be bigger than me but i could probably find a way to take her.  Her New Orleans ash is about to get a rude awakening, I'm so furious at this point, if she says one more thing, my boot is gonna be up her ashsshshshshs!!!!!!!!! <3 Leighann

Birthday Tribulations

So, yes today is my birthday! You are suppose to be happy on your birthday; your birthday is suppose to be a special day especially since I'm  17.  Someone just had to go and mess it up! Someone had to just go and p- me -o!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Not allowed to curse beings this is a school assignment)  I'm sick of this bull spit, and her donkey is about to be grass!!!! UGH!!!! <3 Leighann

LEAVE ME ALONE

The more I am in the public eye, the more people have made It a point to speak about my mom. Come on people, do you really think I want to hear your mess!?  I'm sick of it! I know i look like my mother! so what!  I just wish sometimes people could stay in their own business and leave the past in the past.  I wish people could stop talking crap about people who cant defend themselves!!!!!!!! <3 Leighann

Goodness Gracious

Goodness, mercy, gotta watch my mouth.  The things I want to say, the things I need to say are bulging, ready for me to spit it out like liquorish! You name on my tongue is the foulest of tastes, so I'm going to keep it out.  Ha ha, you are as good as gone! No one is going to give you the satisfaction honey and you can suck my big toe! <3 Leighann